hello friday!

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

What is exactly strategic thinking?

I tried to download some journals from Sciencedirect about this topic, but apparently it costs me money in which I am unwilling to pay. *yea..kedekut gile untuk ilmu (but FOC items look much more tempting!) lol. anyway, I should thank my lil brother for teaching and guiding me on this matter.

*hugs.

on the other hand, i am trying to get everything under control at the moment. definitely trying my best!. walaupun lembap sikit daripada kura-kura.

second item is that, yes..i am too occupied with my own life. i should not let working life take over my whole life. including my precious time with my own family.

i miss home.

very much.

ps: personal issue is not my priority at the moment. i am done thinking. for something that is beyond my control where i have less than 50% control over it, i will not overdo or overthink like i used to before. God is there for me, isnt it? As-Sami'..i know He heard me. and always hears me. definitely!.

*smile.

random thoughts

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

The 3 Things in life that we should know;

That is why these logic should be apply in life;  

because apparently:

credits to my friend; i found this on her FB page. ;)

rambling..p1

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

I have been too occupied with work and events in my life these past few weeks. also have been in the all-so-stressed-mode until i fall sick. well, it wasn't totally about work. there is also a personal issue that needed me to straightened out myself. in which required me to be perfectly in rational mode.

*hembus nafas.

i guess i cant fight my conscience. because it was the core value and my principle in life. you cant just simply throw away something that you have been holding and believing for years.

it's like the only branch that you hold and you trust with all your heart, it wont break no matter how hard the tornado hits. and i grow up holding this values, which shaped me to be who i am today. what am i supposed to do when i need go against my own morale values? it's killing me inside. fullstop.

i hate struggling. and i hate going through harsh and hard moment in life. it is not hard in a physical way actually. but it kills my passion about life eventually. *yeah, i  know i am nagging about things now. literally. without telling exactly what the problem is.

never mind, will try to work it out later. i will put it under pending item. important, but not urgent. the urgency should be put on my unsettled zillion tasks (im a drama queen, huh?).  but whatever it is, i need to starts planning my work this weekend. maybe it will cost me a day or two. at least it will clear me out from those pending tasks.

my responsibilities are getting heavier. i notice that myself. and i wonder why was i given this responsibilities when i am not ready yet?. maybe i need to speed up my reading so i can read up more books by the end of next month. kenapa nak baca buku tiba-tiba? dan apa kena mengena buku dengan responsibility?

well, simply said, to gain more and moooreee knowledge! kepala dah berkarat bila berfikir tanpa pertambahan ilmu yang sepatutnya. and recently, apa yang selalu dibincangkan was all about work. and work. and yeah, some gossips to spice up the life. *giggles. just kidding.

im tired. if this year i still cant manage to my work well, maybe it is time to think about alternative. but one of my colleague said, that was an escapism. the easy way out. yeah, couldn't agree more with him. but on the other hand, if this escapism can increase my capability and strength and improve my overall values, why not?

it is still an option. isn't it?

this is definitely for you..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

it is whether i am too attached to you. or i am too dependent on you. but unfortunately, i'm starting to miss you even more when the weekend is coming..

and regardless of who ever is staying besides me, life doesn't seems complete to me. there's a hole that nobody can ever fill it just no matter how or what they do.

i guess, you really are my soulmate! my bff & my sister!

damn, i really miss your presence in this house even more now. sebab satu hari ni apparently i didn't get your report of what happened today.

susah bila you can't lose either one of these important people in your life no matter what. sigh.

hopefully time can pass by quicker than it should!

ps: it's the 100th post! congratulations to me, myself and i. heh. working life seems to look even more stress than it has ever been before. it is either with the jobs, the people, or the system itself. i guess nothing is perfect in this life. even so, i will still try to do the best i should. it is not about getting someone else's attention nor trying to look as if i am the best among all. it is about getting the satisfaction level that i want in things that i do. that matters the most at the moment. 

change is constant..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

when we say things like, people don't change..

it drives scientists crazy..

because change is literally the only constant in all of science..


energy..matter..

it always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying..


it's the way people try not to change that is unnatural..

the way we cling to what things were instead of letting it be with what they are..

the way we cling to our memories instead of forming a new ones..

the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication..

that anything in this lifetime is permanent.

change is constant.

how we experience change?

 that is up to us. it can be like a death...

or it can be a second chance to a life..

if we open our fingers,

losing our grip,

and go with it...

it can be like pure adrenalin..


like in any moment, we can have another chance in life...

like in any moment, we can be born.. all over again..

-meredith grey; grey's anatomy s07e01-

"what happen to us, is only 10%. 90% is how we react to it.."

Life is..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

I know He will never breaks His promise. And thus I will not stop praying until He answers it. That faith I have for Him, should be a solid one without any doubts. But as His imperfect servant, there are times when it starts to shake.

Saya kah yang tidak cukup bersabar menanti keputusan pasti? Atau permintaan itu bukan yang terbaik di waktu ini? Looking at the condition now, I am pretty sure that this is the best one. Tapi jawapan itu terhenti bersama perkataan ini..

"Bersabarlah..kerana Dia sedang mempersiapkan yang terbaik buat kamu.."

Jika kesabaran itu harga bagi sebuah harapan dan doa, maka itu lah yang akan saya genggam kukuh. erat. tanpa lepas. penuh yakin. semampu pasti.

Cuma berharap, hati tidak goyah menanti sebuah kepastian.

ps: I  need my BFF badly to help me see through all the possibilities and options available. *kerut dahi berfikir.

during sleepless night..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

okay. this is the third night, I woke up during midnight. dan hilang rasa kantuk yang sepatutnya wujud demi untuk membolehkan mata terpejam dan otak berehat.

This is gonna affect my body clock later. not a good sign. By the way, im in love with all the songs in Glee. I know. I know. Orang dah lama suka baru sibuk nak suka jugak. kan?

Let's enjoy with the selected youtube videos. Look for the meaning in between the lyrics. *winks!

And oh! there is something useful I want to share..

"Giving is a miracle that can transform the heaviest of hearts. Two people, who moments before lived in separate worlds of private concerns, suddenly meet each other over a simple act of sharing. The world expands, a moment of goodness is created, and something new comes into being where before there was nothing.

To often we are blind to this everyday miracle. We build our lives around accumulation--of money, of possessions, of status--as a way of protecting ourselves and our families from the vagaries of the world. Without thinking, we begin to see giving as an economic exchange--a subtracting of something from who and what we are--and we weigh it on the scales of self-interest.

But true giving is not an economic exchange, it is a generative act. It does not subtract from what we have; it multiplies the effect we can have in the world.

Many people tend to think of giving only in terms of grand gestures. They miss the simple openings of the heart that can be practiced anywhere with almost anyone.

We can say hello to someone everybody ignores. We can offer to help a neighbor. We can buy a bouquet of flowers and take it to a nursing home, or spend an extra minute talking to someone who needs our time.

We can take ten dollars out of our pocket and give it to someone on the street. No praise, no hushed tones of holy generosity. Just give, smile, and walk away.

If you perform these simple acts, little by little you will start to understand the miracle of giving. You will begin to see the unprotected human heart and the honest smiles of human happiness. You will start to feel what is common among us, not what separates and differentiates us.

Before long you will discover that you have the power to create joy and happiness by your simplest gestures of caring and compassion. You will see that you have the power to unlock the goodness in other people's hearts by sharing the goodness in yours.

And, most of all, you will find the other givers. No matter where you live or where you travel, whether you speak their language or know their names, you will know them by their small acts, and they will recognize you by yours. You will become part of the community of humanity that trusts and shares and dares to reveal the softness of its heart.

Once you become a giver you will never be alone."

-Simple Truth by Kent Nerburn-

Ps: Please note that you will always be my special lil giver and that you're not alone..will never be..insya Allah. *wink!