change is constant..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

when we say things like, people don't change..

it drives scientists crazy..

because change is literally the only constant in all of science..


energy..matter..

it always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying..


it's the way people try not to change that is unnatural..

the way we cling to what things were instead of letting it be with what they are..

the way we cling to our memories instead of forming a new ones..

the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication..

that anything in this lifetime is permanent.

change is constant.

how we experience change?

 that is up to us. it can be like a death...

or it can be a second chance to a life..

if we open our fingers,

losing our grip,

and go with it...

it can be like pure adrenalin..


like in any moment, we can have another chance in life...

like in any moment, we can be born.. all over again..

-meredith grey; grey's anatomy s07e01-

"what happen to us, is only 10%. 90% is how we react to it.."

Life is..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

I know He will never breaks His promise. And thus I will not stop praying until He answers it. That faith I have for Him, should be a solid one without any doubts. But as His imperfect servant, there are times when it starts to shake.

Saya kah yang tidak cukup bersabar menanti keputusan pasti? Atau permintaan itu bukan yang terbaik di waktu ini? Looking at the condition now, I am pretty sure that this is the best one. Tapi jawapan itu terhenti bersama perkataan ini..

"Bersabarlah..kerana Dia sedang mempersiapkan yang terbaik buat kamu.."

Jika kesabaran itu harga bagi sebuah harapan dan doa, maka itu lah yang akan saya genggam kukuh. erat. tanpa lepas. penuh yakin. semampu pasti.

Cuma berharap, hati tidak goyah menanti sebuah kepastian.

ps: I  need my BFF badly to help me see through all the possibilities and options available. *kerut dahi berfikir.

during sleepless night..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

okay. this is the third night, I woke up during midnight. dan hilang rasa kantuk yang sepatutnya wujud demi untuk membolehkan mata terpejam dan otak berehat.

This is gonna affect my body clock later. not a good sign. By the way, im in love with all the songs in Glee. I know. I know. Orang dah lama suka baru sibuk nak suka jugak. kan?

Let's enjoy with the selected youtube videos. Look for the meaning in between the lyrics. *winks!

And oh! there is something useful I want to share..

"Giving is a miracle that can transform the heaviest of hearts. Two people, who moments before lived in separate worlds of private concerns, suddenly meet each other over a simple act of sharing. The world expands, a moment of goodness is created, and something new comes into being where before there was nothing.

To often we are blind to this everyday miracle. We build our lives around accumulation--of money, of possessions, of status--as a way of protecting ourselves and our families from the vagaries of the world. Without thinking, we begin to see giving as an economic exchange--a subtracting of something from who and what we are--and we weigh it on the scales of self-interest.

But true giving is not an economic exchange, it is a generative act. It does not subtract from what we have; it multiplies the effect we can have in the world.

Many people tend to think of giving only in terms of grand gestures. They miss the simple openings of the heart that can be practiced anywhere with almost anyone.

We can say hello to someone everybody ignores. We can offer to help a neighbor. We can buy a bouquet of flowers and take it to a nursing home, or spend an extra minute talking to someone who needs our time.

We can take ten dollars out of our pocket and give it to someone on the street. No praise, no hushed tones of holy generosity. Just give, smile, and walk away.

If you perform these simple acts, little by little you will start to understand the miracle of giving. You will begin to see the unprotected human heart and the honest smiles of human happiness. You will start to feel what is common among us, not what separates and differentiates us.

Before long you will discover that you have the power to create joy and happiness by your simplest gestures of caring and compassion. You will see that you have the power to unlock the goodness in other people's hearts by sharing the goodness in yours.

And, most of all, you will find the other givers. No matter where you live or where you travel, whether you speak their language or know their names, you will know them by their small acts, and they will recognize you by yours. You will become part of the community of humanity that trusts and shares and dares to reveal the softness of its heart.

Once you become a giver you will never be alone."

-Simple Truth by Kent Nerburn-

Ps: Please note that you will always be my special lil giver and that you're not alone..will never be..insya Allah. *wink!

Dear God, can time stop for a while? please?

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

My head is full with work and planning..Quality and Production..man, I really need to sit down the whole day and start planning for the whole Quality activities and decide clearly what I need my team to do. Because apparently, that is the first item written in my KPI.

How I wish I could stop the time for 3 days and finish-up all the documentation for this!

and people still have not seen anything in progress yet.

love, from Gemas

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

As salam and afternoon!

Salam maulidur rasul..and happy hols to all. *smile.


Btw, recently my broadband went cazy. It seems like there is no signal available and this has been like this for the past few weeks. sigh. serious terasa seperti katak bawah tempurung. eventhough i have my blackberry that is complete with data plan, it's just dont feel the same like when you're surfing using lappy. and yeah, it's limited!

nanti nak tukar yang baru. *raised eyebrows.

anyway, i have just realized that i have not set my twenty twelve goals and resolutions yet on paper. but roughly i have set them in mind. and surprisingly two of them have been successfully implemented or in realization phase.

but my utterly important resolution this year is still the measurable phase. the target is to be accomplished by end of this year. hopefully this can be done. amin~

twenty twelve wishlist?

two of them has been done. perfectly! alhamdulillah. i guess at this age, i have become more realistic. at least, better than during my early twenties. but still i need to overcome one of my weaknesses. asap. cuba untuk puaskan hati semua orang even if it means doing things i dont favor in the first place. it is really hard. to be honest. atau pun baik tak kena tempat. phewh!

hopefully this can be eliminated successfully just as my successful project eliminating waste in production. *tak sama, just taking the concept. overly self sacrificing is really the best way jeopardizing your own life. should learn to ensure my rationality wont be override by emotion. anymore. this year.

we're gonna have doa selamat and barbeque this evening. celebrating my lil bro and couzzie's birthdays! in Gemas.

gemas map

*and i forgot to get them presents! *patting forehead. not a good big sister, huh? adoyai.

never mind. can always have post-birthday prezzies. *wink.

oh btw, i found this one pantun in one of my cousin's lit book. (i really miss literature subject during high school!)..it is perfectly rhythm and well written.~


Mengkuang konon kayu Patani,
Tersandar pada kayu kelat;
Tebuang sudah rupanya kami,
Bagaikan ikan di luar belat.

-end-

~.the unwavering faith.~

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

a blissful weekend to starts with and hopefully til the end. recently, i came across this one old song. once a number one hits. "tears in heaven by eric clapton". it is a very beautiful song. indeed.

at first when i looked at the official video clip (as per claimed in youtube) and compared the lyrics, i knew there is more beyond the love between a man and a woman as shown in the clip. that is when i learned the real story about this song (i know...ketinggalan zaman gile kan? better late than never~)



this remind me of my late brother. i really miss him though. always. i guess until the last breath, i will still miss him. al fatihah.

like eric clapton, i guess that song has been my special favorite song ever besides this one (arwah's favorite song). i used it as message ringtone personalized for my parents.




ps: hopefully i can sing it with my dearest brother while he plays the guitar..one day. ;)

2011, a look back. 2012, a step forward..

in the name of Allah The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

As salam.

*smile.

ahem..it has been a while since i posted my last entry. when was it? yeah, in 20 something December (pardon my broken English.) there are so many things that i wanted to share. but come to think about it, it would be preferable if i just keep it in my personal journal. (call me outdated, but i still prefer this outdated way of keeping important memoirs, events and knowledge) you can't just simply share everything to public. i would rather share them with selective people, in which i get to choose them myself. Because those people are definitely people that are important and close to my heart. thus, forever my sweethearts. insya Allah.

Actually I have stop writing ever since i got to know this blogging thing. however, it turned out to be more crap written than beneficial knowledge. and sometimes they get too personal. macam share tentang what really happen between you and your significant other. lepas tu get mushy and lovey dovey feelings. LOL. but hey, that was during my early years! 

I will definitely never write that kind of thing again in my blog! sigh. 

twenty eleven was a challenging year for me. that was when i started my career, learn to stabilize and balancing my life. it wasn't easy. very stressful indeed. i've shed tears for so many times. for so many reasons. and mostly due to working life. (cengeng kan? nak buat guane..) but that was the best way to release the pressure inside. 

that was the year where i learned a lot bout love, appreciation, friendship and bonding. twenty ten, i made many friends but none of them really stay. not that i blame them because apparently people come and go in our life. but we decided which one that should stay beside us. forever.

and none of them were chosen. 

no. i am not being arrogant or perhaps egocentric. it is not that easy to find someone that fit us. wholly. some people, we can talk about this stuff. but not the other stuff. or they don't listen well. they tend to hear, most of the time. heh. (and i did that too sometimes! sebab penatlah menjadi pendengar setia without being acknowledged. at least)

back to the topic, my twenty eleven ended even though not in a very good way (because i didn't manage to pass the level i put on myself previously in the early months that year) masih terkejar-kejar lagi sana sini. still frowning and sweat the small stuff. T_T . my bad. but i got  very special presents from Him. 

kawan baik yang jauh di mata kembali di sisi. dan kehadiran adik yang sangat istimewa di hati. dan itu telah melengkapi sebahagian kehidupan saya. and i decided to make them stay in my life. forever. insya Allah.

jadi, 2012 ini akan dimulai dengan beberapa perancangan. personal and working life. both. just to ensure smoother self-development and gear-up my performance's speed. nah, saya tak akan terangkan dengan terperinci di sini. this is going to be a platform of my summary of what had happened to me. 

ps: thank you for the encouragement to jot down/write up important things in journal. very much appreciated!

pss: please forgive my ignorance. i am bad in explaining my true feelings and insensitive about  small things and minor details. but you guys definitely are special and important people in my life! sumpah. tak tipu. *senyum. 

one of the unforgettable moment in 2011  *wink.